by Christie Perkins
Funny how Heavenly Father has been helping me all along.
You know how sometimes you do things and you think that you are helping someone else. You hope and think you are changing the world in some small way. Your impressions to do certain things are so strong and as you follow them you are certain that someone was being helped by you and your efforts.
But then I realized something: this was all meant for me.
All of this stressing, and worrying, and thinking, and planning, and writing was all for me. I was guided and prompted… and reminded of the goodness of God. I prayed many times that whoever needed these words on my blog would feel them and benefit from them. Heavenly Father in His goodness and kindness was telling me eternal truths that I felt so passionately about. I prayed that I would reach that one person who truly needed it.
I had no idea that that one person would be me.
Over the last few weeks we have learned that my cancer is back. I’m right in the middle of testing and there are still a lot of questions. But as the words “stage 4” fell from the lips of my oncologist I realized that there was a new life plan for me.
And suddenly I wondered if I was doing the right thing with my life at all. Was I supposed to be writing? Have I wasted over a year of my life pursuing my passion? Was I in line with what my Heavenly Father wanted me to do? These questions troubled me.
I put writing on hold.
I didn’t know what I was supposed to do. And then one day a friend came to visit me. She talked about my blog and how she could see the transformation that took place in me over this last year through my blog.
And it clinked into place for me. Yes, I would continue to take faith filled steps towards who I would become. And writing was a piece of that.
So… I’m back.
I will continue to write about the goodness of God. How life is so incredibly sweet and good. How every day is a blessing. (And how some days just stink.) And I will see the humor of a day and love it… not wallow in doom and gloom. And I will assure you that God has a plan for each of us and He will uphold you in your difficult times.
I know. I know because these last couple of weeks when I felt as if I should crumble, I have felt a power beyond my own lift and carry me. There are earthly and heavenly angels near to bear and strengthen me. Of that I am sure.
How blessed I am.
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